Another day

Well another day has come and almost gone, and then i get to crawl into my bed, and pretend that nothing in the world is wrong, so that at least for the moment that i don't have anything i can do, and that i can relax in bed read, listen to music or play solitare on the ipod. Nightmares have become less, so now i just dream weird dreams, and at times have dreams of grandure! I am missing my family, i am missing the fact that i cannot go to my mom's place and just get out of the situation for a while, just go do stuff with sisters, just do stuff.

But i can't and i'm sad. I love California, but some days i wish i was back in Manitoba, (only in the summer). Oh well, one day at a time right!!! I should probably be working on my bookkeeping exam, but it scares me LOL a hundred pages of crap and numbers!! I guess i'm just afraid that i'm going to fail this, but that's the little kid in me so uncertain of what she can and cannot do, i know the stuff, i'm smart and i've done better then i could of even imagined, but when push comes to shove i always doubt myself. Which means that me talking to myself is a current theme with me somedays!!

I went to therapy today, it was a good therapy, my therapist says that i'm doing well. But she says i need to get out and get to work, which will help me out too. I'm impatiently waiting for the workers comp people to let me know what's up, so that i can get started with preparing for when everything shifts, if it shifts at all! So its just a waiting game, too bad i suck at waiting! lol

Although on a much lighter note, my beloved bird sqeakers has learnt the word "kiss" and the other day i heard him say "kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss" and i turn to look at him and he was bent over grooming his ass saying kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss, now picture that. Now that's comic relief!