I can finally breathe

Today I had an experience that scared the shit out of me. I have joined a support group that has groups that have sexual abuse, depression anxiety, and so on, and i met this 15 year old Canadian, and we started talking, her story was so sad, and the more she told me the more i felt so awful for her, so i put myself out there and said if she needed to talk anytime i would try and be there for her, well over the last couple weeks we have kept in contact and she was just in so much pain, her father abused her from the tender age of 4 till she was 14. I will not begin to tell you her story because she prefers her privacy, lately she was struggling and i was talking with her daily just being her friend and trying to help her understand somethings if she needed it!

But today we talked the minute i got up and we talked a bout everything and anything. Well all of a sudden she started getting down on her self and i started to think that she might have a melt down, 5 minutes later i was right, that poor girl couldn't take her flashbacks the nightmares the pain she's been through and continues to go through, she said she would be better off dead, and i asked her are you serious about suicide, she said yes, i asked did you have a plan, she said yes, pills, and i asked her when she said I am taking them right now! I fought to have her tell me where she lived so i could send emergency support to help her, but she really wanted to die, oh god i don't know how to explain the fear i had, i was so far away i didn't have anything to contact her with, and she was dying and i knew she was. I didn't have a town i didn't have anything i was going crazy i couldn't believe this was happening, she then disappeared, i couldn't get her to continue to chat with me, the bottle of Prozac was doing what she wanted, then a miracle happened, her friend came online because she had come to visit my friend, and her friend was asking who is this, i asked her where *kim* was and she said she was out cold i told her call 911 she just downed a bottle of pill and she's dying!!!!

But thank god her friend helped her, made her throw up some of the pills, and the EMT's came and took her to the hospital, and i just heard that she is doing alright and she'll sleep through the night at the hospital!

Talk about helpless feeling. That poor girl!! My heart aches for her.