A Converstaion between Me and my SI personality

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Tiffany

Tiffany tries to ignore the annoying sound in her head.. does everything to avoid it, madly cleans her kitchen the bedroom organize the bed room closet.

Hey TIFFANY.

Tiffany is still trying to ignore, maybe mindless games will help, maybe loud music will make it go away kill it with loud music!!

Hey BITCH i'm talking to you, you can't ignore me, i'm a part of you i am you i'm the better half of you. You need to take care of yourself, cut yourself, make your leg bleed, slit your flesh open, bleed that crimson blood that makes you, you know you want to, quit thinking that your therapy is working and the medication is just a little a little blanket but i come back all the time and you know it! I will prevail! You will bleed and you will remember why you do it! And you will love it.

No I won't i have worked to hard to get this far, leave me alone, fuck off, let me be normal let me be me healthy in the mind. I don't want to cut myself its the lazy way out it doesn't really work and it just causes more pain for the loved once around me. They don't want to see me put myself into that place anymore!! I don't want to cut i don't want anymore scars from the past! I'm in the present!

Yeah right, your not any better you can't control your anxiety your medication isn't working, quit trying to pretend that you don't want to cut yourself. You want to you just do the lazy thing, make things easier on you. You won't have to suffer so much, you know that dealing with emotions and you will feel free, of the constant pressure, blood will make that go away its just a cleansing, its just blood its just another scar on your body, or just use your old scars no biggie, it will soothe your mind it will take away your it will give you peace! No one can do what i can do! I can take care of you like no one else!! Come on Tiff, baby girl, come back and do it the way we it use to be lets take care of each other. Just remember how it feels to drag that blade across your skin, watching the blood rise up, then pour over your skin, remember the sigh of relief remember the Ecstasy of it all, remember that its the only way you will ever be okay!!